fourbanger

"To breathe is to be damned, To blieve is a fool's condemnation. I wish to do neither, but I can not, for I too am human."

I am torn torn between loving you wanting you needing you or not between imploding recklessly into a chasm of lonliness of drowning goldfish and rays of sunlight or not between pleasing the one who will reward (myself) or the one who will dissapoint (also myself) between falling asleep in a snowdrift or burning up in the moon neither care if I come too late so long as I don't come too soon

Out of your mind, then, but sharp as a tack lying in wait for the chance to attack We always do better together, it seems Cause when we're apart we do just what we please I'm going to bed all alone and un-equaled No sense in pretending you don't know the sequel We wake up, we yawn in the pale afternoon then out on our missions, 'least one would presume But my mish is o so much diffrn't from yours not really, of course 'sept for the chores We both want for something that's better than this We both want to love, we both want to kiss We both need to love, and we've learned how to hate We drink to be equal, do drugs to esca

Things right now look awful bleak It is just the start of the week Can I stand much more of this Before I go and slit my wrists? The money is all gone I ran over my own dog There's no TP in the house The bread was eaten by a mouse but... Things are really not that bad There's no reason for me to be so fucking sad I probably shouldn't worry so much If I am getting baked on cough syrup My dog is sill ok Tomorrow's just another day The money'll come around If I just pull my head out of my ass

I've heard her say she loves me But I've heard that one before I've told her that I care for her But not said anymore She's with another man now As always seems the case And there's nothing I can do about it Lest that be something base Last Friday night I called her But I don't remember talking Last Friday night I made it home But I don't remember walking I think she put me on the phone To the fellow she was with I think he said "she loves you, man" I think that I was pissed I don't remember I'm confused It's because I'm an idiot.

When you're sitting in your home Feeling broke 'n so alone And it just hurts more when you close your eyes When your friends they are a dyin' And your mama she's a cryin And you've got no one to make it alright Don't bother to explain it There's no need for you to justify The reason why you feel the way you do And though you want to blow your brains out Cause it hurts just to survive Do what your mama told you; let it slide Hold on to your dignity When you're in line at the Mustard Seed You don't need to swallow your pride There's a million hurtin' people Just like you out there Just doing what they have to to get by And t

I'm a nazi, it's my choice I'm a nazi, hear my voice I thrive on fear and hate I'll smash the sense of untiy that you create Shaved heads & swastikas We'll kick your ass just because A million nazis can't be wrong If your blood isn't pure, then you just don't belong... Your eyes are brown and your hair is green So have a bath in gasoline And watch the match that I light And toss upon you with delight You're not the same, you have to die A million nazis just woulnd't lie. . . ? Some of you may wonder just how we get by But as long as you're afraid of us, we'll always survive.

Young Blood And the world is brand new to you. Everything is happening for the first time. You are perfect innocence. But in your eyes shines intelligence, preception and love, and your curiosity will surely lead to things you will wish you'd never seen. And I'll protect you from harm as long as you let me, though you should know that harm exists. I'll fight for you, little one, for you are part of me.

My mind is on fire My hands are alive I finally have what i need to survive Coffee and Niccotine course through my veins Since I started working thing's just ain't the same I'm being productive 'least that's what they say Why then am I still losing track of the days And why do i still feel so scattered and torn Maybe that's just the way i was born I work for the money I live for the love I spend both oh so wisely ..just look at me now The grass seems so much greener on the other side And it's just mis-demeanor to be colourblind And your hair looks really lovely cause it's on your head, not mine ...and everything diss

Ersatz By: addie slebodnik I awoke on the sidewalk, a chill in my bones woke to a silver moon in a tangerine sky we all walk together, yet we all walk alone better alone than in the crowd die The hypocritic oath of the media sings its songs of beauty and acceptance around in young peoples ears these messages ring in their minds these promises pound On cold sand my toes squish between- thousands of grains that all look the same when single, invisible - when combined can be seen a trick of conformity to win its game On loners and outcast advertisments prey grasping inspiring individuals - stealing their minds with glimmering pic

How can you know my pain? You don't even know me! You will never understand. The things I do, The things I say, You don't quite get And I'm not surprised Nothing you do surprises me anymore. It's always a generic copy of another Just another cheap ripoff Though you think it is new and awesome... I see through it all. You may not know me But I know all about you. I know you aren't all that happy Though yuour problems aren't as bad as mine You're a braggart I am unassured Stop trying to help me It isn't doing any good In fact it's making matters worse! I hate how you try too hard I'm not the only one either. You might as